laurenceiscaustic

I've been home in my parents house all day, it's so nice to be here.
I don't get the chance to come back here too much but I love being here.
Reconnecting with myself is so easy here.
I'm not usually this forthcoming with personal details online as it's not my style but I think, perhaps my closed nature is damaging things so it's about time I opened up.

I'm on Buzznet every day, reading, thinking, I wish they payed me as I would be rich!
I love blogs, especially Hanna Beth's, Raquel Reed's and of course, Panasonic Youth's, which may make me sound super scene or something, but I'm not any of that, I think I'm just to nice sometimes. I connect with so many things and I hate having to explain that in myself. I never understood why someone would pretend to hate something they loved to fit in.
I went to a somewhat catholic Irish language speaking primary school and I loved the Spice Girls. I used to make the girls dance with me in the playground until they were forced to seperate the boys and girls so as not to, I don't know, further gayify me? The experience left a horrible taste in my mouth and so I have always stood up for what I love no matter how ridiculous other people thought it was.
Jeffree Star makes me smile and dance.
I love Dirk Mai's photography.
Kat Von D is my hero of the day as her book "High Voltage" arrived today and it's fabulous.
I'm obsessed woth Blaqk Audio, Jay Brannan and Dolly Parton today.
It snowed here in Ireland today and my good friend Ian took some beautiful pictures in Dublin and I love the self portraits he took, they just look awesome and have such atmosphere.





Moving on...
A movie I INSIST that everyone should see is "Into The Wild" starring Emile Hirsch, it's absolutely breath taking.
It's about a man named Christopher McCandles who one day decided to just up and leave, not just his life, but the entire world, it's bullshit culture and mindless consumerism and off he went...Into The Wild.
It' absolutely one of the best, most genuine and most honest and beautigul movies I've ever seen and it's something I'm extremely envious of.
To just up and leave like that.
It'd be amazing.
Though after awhile I would like like a Yeti with insane Lion's Mane like head of hair and a full beard on each side of my face.
It would be beyond worth it though.

However, on the polar opposite side of my mind is the person wearinf beautiful clothes and being generally ridiculous.
People ALWAYS ask why I like Victoria Beckham so much and it's because she was ALWAYS my favourite Spice Girl as she was the underdog of sorts and now she's the most succesful so ha! She is always somewhat fabulously ridiculous and almost walking fashion and I find her so amazing.


Hanna Beth is someone I've just started paying attention to recently, almost by accident.
I was aware of her for quite some time as my house mate is obsessssssed with her and I always thought she was so cute but the last few weeks, I've been looking at what she wears, how she writes and just liking it all!
She looks like Jackie O-does-casualglam here and it's awesome!


I've got a busy few weeks ahead.
Get to see my man tomorrow EEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!
Dublin Friday to see my friend's band play, gonna be awesome.
Week later is Freakscene's 60's+80's night which sounds horrifying but like last time, will hopefully be a  lot of fun.
Then myself and a few of the guys are flying to London to see The Cure which I'm SO stoked about. Crystal Castles support which should be awesome. I need to have a ragebegone dance.
THEN it's my 22nd birthday and this is how I feel wasted (to draaaaaaaaaaaaag the title out!) as I'm not where I wanted to be.
Soon though.
Middle of March, myself and Aimee will fly over to somewhere in the UK to see a few of Jeffree's shows, as many as we can.
So. Excited.

I'm pretty excited that my friend Liam's band Days Of Night are doing so well, they're AMAZING and you should go check them out.
 www.myspace.com/daysofnightband 

Liam and I are hardcore at night haha.
xx o




I must sincerely go to sleep now as it is very late and a night of conflicting and incoherent thoughts has made me extremely sleepy.

xx o

LxK